THE UPWARDS GAZE
My father was a harpsichordist who specialized in Baroque music. He met my mother as a student in Prague. He loved the architecture and would often point his camera skywards. 'Oh God,' my mother explains, 'I was always bloody waiting for him! He would be in a rapture, lying on the floor in a trance, trying to photograph an ornate ceiling.' It's almost as if he tried not just to document but to elevate moments and focus on the ornate and the sublime in his photography, as he did his music.
Amongst these many images of frescoes, ceilings, gargoyles, and stucco reliefs, I am most drawn to his photos of windows.
I love not just the ornate surroundings or the rhythmically patterned roof tiles; it is the humanity and domesticity that my father captured. I wonder who tends to the pot plants or feels the fresh air on their skin. What lies in the spaces beyond the windows?
My father admired craftsmanship, structure, and the interplay of light and shadow.
Hi focus on beauty and detail however, might also have been a way of finding solace and meaning amidst life’s difficulties—a refuge, a way of holding onto the things he loved most as he faced his own struggles.
On 17th October 1975, my father placed his glasses and a watch on the table and jumped from a third floor window of our family home..